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BOOK THREE:

APRIL 2013.

Cassandra and KC broke up. KC has finally broke up with her. Yes, KC loved Cassandra, she cherished her and never regret loving her. Even those years, KC knew that this will happen, that they will eventually go to separate roads., but KC knew that this is the right thing to do. KC, always wanted to save her ex lover, her girlfriend, Cassandra.

JUNE 2014.

As I looked at his casket right now, I remember the time when Brian and I met on that train accident in 2011. He was hit by a car last week, it was an accident but the driver’s still on loose. Since Cassandra and I broke up few months ago, Cassandra seemed to throw her life already. I hear stories that she fights often in bars, she got convicted, she did this and that. I felt guilty about what happened to her, knowing that I am the only person that can save her. But I hope that Cass realize someday that we all have our choices. People come and go in our life, all we can do is to learn from them, and never blame them for what we have become or what we will be someday, because, it’s always our choice, choice to be a better version of ourselves.

I am thankful at least that Brian was used by God for me to meet my future husband----Jack. Jack and I met last year when Brian invited me in their church. Jack and Brian are best friends since childhood, and for a man losing His friend is like losing his own life too.

I’m just gonna be a Godly woman that God wants me to be for Jack, for my future children and for my family. A woman who values herself, as how I am valued by my Savior Jesus Christ and a wife that gives comfort for my family.

JULY 2014.

I don’t care about the world anymore or what I do with my life. This is my life and I should live this the way I want it to be. I knew that stupid Brian churchy guy and KC tried to win me or invite me in their church, but that’s not my thing. I mean? How could you ever trust this guy who took away the woman you love and made her his girlfriend? Stupid right?. So no, I am not joining their show.

Who would even thought that it was a homicide? Haha. When I saw Brian crossing that street, all the memories of KC went back. The thought of Brian kissing KC killed me, brought pain and tears in my eyes, that, made me decide to step on that gas pedal and hit him as he crossed the street leaving him dead.

That was my sweet revenge. The feeling of tears and mascara on my face as I hit his body was priceless. No one can have KC, she’s better alone rather than be with Brian. There will never be a happy ending as long as I live, it’s gonna be a miserable life.

Yes, I killed Brian. This is my choice. We all have our choices.

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PROLOGUE

BOOK ONE: LIPSTICK

BOOK TWO: SHADOWS

A Curios Mind: Mascara [Book 3]

BOOK TWO.

MARCH 2013.

I’m Feeling a little dizzy as I woke up in this bed with another woman. That was a party on that bar last night. I’m not a drinking person, I just want to escape all my anxieties, and that is KC and our discreet relationship.

I don’t know where I am now, all I know is that KC has changed. She has changed her ways, ways that I don’t understand. Something’s different about her now, the hardest part is, she doesn’t want to tell me, I just feel it.

We’ve been in this relationship for two years now. I don’t know if she changed because I already told everyone that I’m gay. Is it the way I dress? Since I started wearing tattoos and manly-stuffs? or maybe she’s afraid that people would judge her, especially her parents. They might figure out that the two of us are not just friends but lovers.

Maybe this is because of Brian. She’s maybe in love with him.

AUGUST 2012. Friday.

I love coffee. I’m excited to meet with our church pastor this evening for some ministry-coffee talk. As I sip my coffee, I saw this woman again, she’s familiar, oh yes! She’s the woman that landed on my chest on that train accident some few years back. She’s still wearing that red lipstick, but her eyes are more noticeable now because of her eye shadows.

“Hi miss, I think we met before. I was the guy on that train, remember? Train accident.. uhm… few years ago..”. I told her as I went on to her table.

“Oh yes! Hi! You’re… Martin?... ah.. Sorry, haha, I’m bad in naming people”. She said.

“It’s OK. I’m Brian, I think your name is KC..right?” and she finally nodded.

She introduced me to Cassandra as well. Her friend, but from the looks of it, I think, it’s more than just friendship.

AUGUST 2012. Sunday.

Brian invited me and Cassandra to their church. We both said yes, but since Cass has a job commitment today, I decided to come alone; this is my way of returning my favor to Brian.

When the pastor started preaching, which is also the same pastor we met last Friday on the coffee shop, something about his words that touched my heart. Something different, something about truth, and I felt that those words are meant for mine, so I thought “is this a way of conspiracy or what? Did they really set that up knowing that I’m attending today?”

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PROLOGUE

BOOK ONE: LIPSTICK

BOOK THREE: MASCARA

A Curios Mind: Shadows [Book 2]

BOOK ONE.

February 14, 2011. 6:00 PM.

The taste of the cigarette still lingers in my mouth right now as I ride this train on the way to Hamburg. I don’t like wearing dresses actually, but I have to anyway since she told me that I look gorgeous every time i wear this red lipstick, this black dress and this black stilettos. I turn her on.

Me and Cassandra have been together for months now. I don’t think that I actually love her. Is this lust? I don’t know either, all I know is I have been changing partners when I realized that I like women too, or maybe I’m confused.

I don’t like describing my life, myself, my dreams or my family. This is just me, just plain me. I am curios but I don’t believe in anything.

“Why it’s taking too long KC, where are you now?” Cassandra said over the phone.

“I’m already here in the train Cass, I’m sorry it’s ju….” The train just suddenly stopped. The place got dark and collided with crushing sound of glass window and loud train break. The silent train turned into chaos as I hear the screams, cries and shouts all over the place. I lost my balance when the trained stopped. I found myself lying on the floor----actually, on a man’s chest.

I can smell and feel his breath on my face. The place is dark, making it hard for me to see his face.

February 14, 2011. 6:40 PM.

The train authorities said there’s a collision of two trains due to the explosion of power fuses. This caused the failure of control, signaling system and power supply. It’s not hard for me to understand these kinds of technical problems since I studied Electronics in college. Thank goodness that nobody got a serious injury on that accident.

All I can remember was that I’m standing in the train. Everyone lost their balance when the train stopped. There’s a woman, wearing a black dress with her funny red lipstick landed on my chest and we both fell on the floor.

I can smell and feel her breath on my face. The place is dark, making it hard for me to see her face.

When the lights turned on, I helped her to stand up and ushered her on the chair. “Are you alright miss?...I’m Brian by the way” offering my hands to shake with hers.

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PROLOGUE

BOOK TWO: SHADOWS

BOOK THREE: MASCARA