1. Your Thoughts.
Hi, i know that this time, you have been through a lot, especially from the past few weeks. Life was not easy for you, you just had you burn-out, you have no money, family issues, you're also struggling to have a job---bigtime, and that sometimes feel that your an idiot.
You're also loosing your hope now, the only hope that you have is on God alone, truly, your relationship with Him from these weeks is different from the last years of your life, maybe that's the purpose of it all, that could be His purpose in your life.
Whatever tomorrow brings, be still, be a man that once you were. God, He is now the center of your life, i know, that when you try to run away from him, He never leaves, He sticks with you, even if you are stubborn. Also, yes, He is graceful but i know you're thinking that it's maybe the consequences of all the sins that you know you've committed.
2. Guilt.
How long will you be sorry?
How long will you just keep committing the same mistakes again, over and over?
How long will you put tears on your Lord's eye?
How long will you break His heart? stop saying sorry, you choose to be where you are wicked! It's your choice man,
3. The Transition.
Throughout those years, God never failed you in all your endeavours, why would he leave you now? (that could be a part of your consequences). Your 23 is a struggle, a lot is changing, your priorities in life, your transitioning in almost all the aspects of your life, you're caught between being a boy, to a man, from your past to your future, you feel choked, you feel that you're getting old, even if the people around you tells you that you are not, but, i believe you are on the right track, you're just building your future. You maybe thought that you are being hard on yourself, but you are not, you're just securing you and your family's future.
