Artistic World~

BOOK ONE.

February 14, 2011. 6:00 PM.

The taste of the cigarette still lingers in my mouth right now as I ride this train on the way to Hamburg. I don’t like wearing dresses actually, but I have to anyway since she told me that I look gorgeous every time i wear this red lipstick, this black dress and this black stilettos. I turn her on.

Me and Cassandra have been together for months now. I don’t think that I actually love her. Is this lust? I don’t know either, all I know is I have been changing partners when I realized that I like women too, or maybe I’m confused.

I don’t like describing my life, myself, my dreams or my family. This is just me, just plain me. I am curios but I don’t believe in anything.

“Why it’s taking too long KC, where are you now?” Cassandra said over the phone.

“I’m already here in the train Cass, I’m sorry it’s ju….” The train just suddenly stopped. The place got dark and collided with crushing sound of glass window and loud train break. The silent train turned into chaos as I hear the screams, cries and shouts all over the place. I lost my balance when the trained stopped. I found myself lying on the floor----actually, on a man’s chest.

I can smell and feel his breath on my face. The place is dark, making it hard for me to see his face.

February 14, 2011. 6:40 PM.

The train authorities said there’s a collision of two trains due to the explosion of power fuses. This caused the failure of control, signaling system and power supply. It’s not hard for me to understand these kinds of technical problems since I studied Electronics in college. Thank goodness that nobody got a serious injury on that accident.

All I can remember was that I’m standing in the train. Everyone lost their balance when the train stopped. There’s a woman, wearing a black dress with her funny red lipstick landed on my chest and we both fell on the floor.

I can smell and feel her breath on my face. The place is dark, making it hard for me to see her face.

When the lights turned on, I helped her to stand up and ushered her on the chair. “Are you alright miss?...I’m Brian by the way” offering my hands to shake with hers.

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PROLOGUE

BOOK TWO: SHADOWS

BOOK THREE: MASCARA

A Curious Mind: Lipstick [Book 1]

A Curios Mind: Prolouge

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In a 3 o'clock rainy afternoon, over a cup of cappuccino in a coffee shop i

sat with John, we talked about things that i always been wanted to ask him-- music, his life, interests, opinion and view about life and faith.

I am an artist, however, i don't even consider myself one hell as good as the other because i know that i am still learning this talent, but i always loved music. I imagine music as complicated as it is technically, so I’m always in awe whenever i hear great music, even just a simple guitar strum, i die. I don’t know if John has created an impact in my musicality so far, but, I know that John made me question and wonder life itself, that John created an impact in our world and in generations, good or bad, it depends on the receiver.

So, i looked at John as i see his signature round glasses on his strong edgy face that reminds me of that old lady veteran pianist in our church (they have the same face feature) and asked "John, I was browsing the internet, i saw your video there, it is called imagine, i got fascinated by it that i searched more about you, your music and your band, the Beatles ". I continued talking and asking questions as i sip my cappuccino, “yesterday, I got curious with queen, and I learned that you also influenced Freddy mercury, how cool is that right? I mean, you influenced a band that also contributed in music and history worldwide”. Before John’s about to answer, I once again talked, without even considering that he is about to answer my questions “… and oh, I learned about your generation, those old good days in the 60’s to 80’s, I always loved hearing music from those times, like everyone’s starting their scenes, creating history, those great musicians from your time influenced a lot of artists and genres today, I mean, whoa? You guys from then are really cool!!!”

These questions I have for John have been running in my mind for some time now. Sitting here with him is a dream come true and these might be the questions that the whole world is dying to ask him.

“You know what John, your songs are very expressive, you are not afraid to talk about love, people, your family and your ideas, I can see that you really love Yoko Ono and your sons”.

Then silenced killed me, it went straight on our table.

There’s this one thing I am dying to ask him all these times, this is about his song imagine. I was thinking if I might offend him or what but I literally don’t know anything now, I just thought, it’s now or never, so I got my courage and asked him “John, your song imagine, the lyrics is about people being united, the message is very powerful, but, John, do you believe in God?”

John looked at me right in my eye. He said “Christianity will go. It will vanish and shrink. I don’t know what will go first, rock ‘n’ roll or Christianity. We’re more popular than Jesus now. Jesus was all right, but his disciples were thick and ordinary. It’s them twisting it that ruins it for me”. He stopped and added “ ..I believe in God, but not as one thing, not as an old man in the sky. I believe that what people call God is something in all of us. I believe that what Jesus and Mohammed and Buddha and all the rest said was right. It's just that the translations have gone wrong.”

Again, silence went on our table.

A conversation with John Lennon

Filipino culture has that close-family ties, and moving out from your parents' house is a no-no especially if you are a fave child. However, as adult, i think at some point in your life, you should try living alone. There are different factors that forces us to move out from a place. So, whatever your reason in moving out from your current place, these are the 3 things you should check before living alone especially if you are a newbie for this lifestyle.

1. Emotional status - If you have a close relationship with your family or home town friends, this is one of the things that you should consider. Living somewhere else, even if you visit your home town sometime on weekends, would still kill you emotionally. Living alone is also like going to another country, with new people, place culture and environment. If you live in a dorm, apartment or share a studio type apartment with friends, you would still miss your family and friends back there. By living alone with strange people, you would appreciate every single moments that you live with them, those times that you shouted at them or laughed hard with them would make you realize things. There's nothing really like a family bond or home town-overnight hangout friendly stuffs, so if you consider moving somewhere far, be ready for emotional separation anxiety in the beginning, we call it #sepanks.

2. Financial - This is one of the serious challenge for grown-up folks---finances. You no longer live with your parents right? You're independent, by that, you are responsible for yourself, my friends, that includes your finances. From a personal experience, i live alone to save money due to the cost that i incur for monthly expenses in travelling versus living somewhere near in my workplace. Finances also means responsibility in budgeting for your daily allowance, food, transportation, basic needs and sometimes a little reward for yourself. My advice is save (1), do not spend beyond your means (2) and be practical and identify your needs vs, wants (3). So whatever it is that you do to your money, always be responsible, never let other people save you from your money and debt problems, if you can't simply manage your finances, well, better check if you can really live independently.

3. Maturity - Yes, you should be! Maturity is in relation with those two points, emotions and finance with of course accountability and responsibility. Living alone means you are responsible for everything that happens to you and your routine. You maybe prepared emotionally or you have money to spend, but remember, managing your finances is maturity when you are spending it wisely. Be responsible because you have moved out and you are living independently, you therefore should be a grown up about the way you act and speak in your community. You should also be responsible for your laundry, your place (clean it atleast for God's sake), your waste, everything that happens around your apartment, your workplace , your health (consider running and exercising), and your society. Just simply be pro-active, that's the sense of being a matured grown-up man and woman.

Truly, living alone might cut you at the beginning because there's a lot of adjustments when it comes to your "new" stuffs. However, living alone would teach you a lot of life lessons. You live alone now and independent, means that you are ready for the world. You would realize that life is full of responsibility, sacrifices (imagine how your parents sacrifice on their younger days right?), curiosity, challenges, fun and possibilities, try not to stumble on things, try to fight, be pro-active and most of all, seize every opportunity as you face the world as a grown-up person. Not all grown-ups are grown-up, show to the world that you are really ready for it!

Artistic World~

A Curious Mind: Lipstick [Book 1]

A Curios Mind: Prolouge

A conversation with John Lennon

3 things to consider before living independently.

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