I remember the first time riding the plane going to another country for a week long vacation  talking to myself, "what did i do to deserve this?".

I remember the first time i dip into that cold water in a waterfall from a travel years ago. I said, "God, Your creations are beautiful".

I remember last summer, my first time snorkeling experience and saw such a vast and beautiful underwater world, I was shaken by God's beautiful hands. The hands that created all these beautiful wonders love me more than anything compare to all these beautiful creatures he created.

The song of River and Robots' Voice That Stills the Raging Sea brought song in me as i enjoy the dipping in the summery ocean. The lyrics goes:

Everyone is searching. Who's not?

The problem is, we cannot find who and what we are searching because we started at the wrong place and foot. Start accepting who you are. Start loving the people around you. Start appreciating the small blessings you have everyday and for sure you will find what you are looking for. Know Jesus more and for sure you don't need to search for things, feelings or accomplishment because He is enough already.

You are not ok.

I heard a lot of times lately that people are trying to be ok because they feel that their tears are sign of weakness. For me, it is not. Your tears are part of your flesh, it is your way of releasing what you feel inside in the midst of the chaos you experience around. The problems are crashing onto you and crying doesn't mean you're weak, it's a sign of fighting and finding courage. You have stopped fighting? that's not quitting, you just went back to your camp to think and plan things through for your next attack.

Cry. Kneel down. Surrender to the King. After all this chaos, for sure you will find the light in you to stand up again for the next days of battle. His voice and love will guide you through the storm because He has overcome.

"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."

-John 16:33

Listen.

Sometimes we talk to much. We are becoming more selfish and self centered because we focus more on our moves, things we need to accomplish and to our failures. There are always time to stop, listen and concentrate. Let Your captain control the boat as he ride the storms in your path. Don't be afraid to surrender in Him because He carries the weak and heavily burdened. He is Peace.