I really don't know what to feel, bitterness is really out in my sight. Although i am sad cause of the lost i had in BULPRISA, the pain is not that much compare to last year when i joined Declamation.

FYI, i joined Oration for the district meet of Bulprisa, but sadly i lost it because i forgot some of my lines. I was looping in the near end part of my piece, I was almost there but the luck maybe for this time was not on my hands. just like i said, i am sad, not disappointed cause i did my best, but really sorry for the minute amnesia i had.

BULPRISA is considered as one or maybe the most prestigious annual event in Bulacan. All of the private schools from grade school to college compete for the Cultural/ Academics and Athletics category. And for me, if your one of the athletes that will represent your school, you're definitely a star. Bulprisa stands for Bulacan Private Schools Association.

So now back to the story, I really don't know what to feel, cause maybe i enjoyed this year's Bulprisa cause the cultural Team, our team really bonded after our competition without even considering our rankings and the outcome of our events. But today really i am sad. Torn if i should compete again next year and get some vengeance or better stop dreaming to compete for provincial, (bahala ka na maam chong). Maam Chong is my coach. I am glad cause she's not mad at me, instead determined to have a revenge again next year.

This moment is clear to my memory:

I was in the middle of my delivery, then suddenly i was starting to realize that i am forgetting my lines. Then i stopped, my hands are cold, i don't know if this is caused by my nervousness, but i think i am not nervous at that time. Then i was thinking the next lines that i need to deliver but i cant really remember anything, all of the people inside the room was looking at me, but i am not worried, I'm just calm.

I took a deep breath then deliver again the line where i stopped hoping that ill remember the lines, but again i loop and went back to the first line.

I took a deep breath again and finally i delivered the line until the end of my piece to the title.

When i stopped, this words are running in my head " Oh no!, after this, i know i wont get the chance to win. What will my team mates say? I'm losing this one, but i cant let this happen.......there's really no chance at all, good bye to provincial and hello to next year"

I looked to my coach but she turned her head back..." Oh my God, my coach is not looking, so I'm on my own now"

After i delivered my lines, as i make my way to my seat, I look at my coach and said......

"Ma'am, I forgot my lines" with the sad face and about to cry thinking of all the efforts our team gave, but my coach replied with a smile on her lips saying " OK Lang yun"

Ill share you this picture of my medal, we are 6 contestants, but you guess in which rank i dropped.